In the Garden of Eden, everyone was naked. 

Then, they ate the fruit, God kicked them out, and they had to wear clothes. 

Prayer at a church requires clothing... (scandals aside)

So, modern prayer instantly requires you to void the ability to connect with God in exchange for a medium. I don't like it. So, lately I've gotten naked at home before praying a few times. No impact noticed so far, but I like it. :)

In the Odyssey by Homer, Odysseus and his men find an island of a witch. If I remember correctly, she transforms some of his men into animals, and he eats them. Ever since I had that thought, eating meat seemed tough.

Seeing the photos in the Epstein Files of actual human bodies prepared for meals makes me think I shouldn't eat meat ever again. 

Vegans may still take it too far. 

My first true idol was Sir Lancelot. He was the best king's best warrior. 

However, Lancelot was an internal threat. As I got older, I realized he wasn't the best warrior. He was the most evil threat. He abused the trust of the greatest king to steal his kingdom instead of working to build his own. Sadly, there are more Lancelots than Arthurs. 

Sadly most women would fuck both Arthur and Lancelot and then call them both weak for allowing her to do it. Women have no value because they chose not to have value. 

Buddha's teaching as I read them stated that once you start down the path to enlightenment, that you are then enlightened. 

IDK. I walked into the doorjam of the same apartment I've lived in for 6 months. I'm pretty sure I'm englighteninging wrong. 

I've heard women's senses change when they stop taking birth control, especially smell and taste. Maybe that's why I've been so unlucky in love. Also, maybe that's why fertility rates dropped? 

Women have had their eggs frozen for generations in hopes of having a family. How many have been siphoned from the pipeline? 1 immoral doctor can access how many millions of eggs? Which CEOs or business directors have access? Their buddies?

How many eggs have been sent to Epstein Island, or other biolabs? #caviar

Ryan Reynolds. (Is he up to 3 movies with time travel since I sent him my novel? Or just 2?)

Chris Pratt (TBD) If he's actually a SEAL, then the coincidences in our books are cultural, not theft and I apologize for sending so much shit his way. Just statistics show word choice etc. Sad.

Tom Hiddleston

The Koch Family

Disney (I saw articles saying Ezra Miller has a sex cult, and Chris Pratt got James Gunn reinstated by Hollywood after he was kicked out for excessively offensive pedo comments). I feel bad for Milly Alcock being paired with those two social justice disasters. I'm a Milly fan, but I won't watch Supergirl. I'll be curious to see if Milly doubles down or removes herself from Disney in the future. Not that my fandom matters, but that's what it hinges on. 

Kathleen Kennedy

Dwayne Johnson

Elon Musk

Chris Evans

Bud Light. I sent their Chief Marketing Officer a copy of my novel to serve as proof of quality of work. I asked them to hire me to make a commercial with The Gronk and either Pokimane or Zoey Deschanel. They did their Dylan Mulvaney promo ~3 months later. They should've listened to me. They could hire me, but the new commercial would require Kid Rock, and all actors to receive his negotiated salary. 

PS: Imagine if, instead of all my work being stolen from me, one of these thieves had reached out to me to hire me/acquire the IP rights to my novel. Instead of being the failure that "friends and family" can attack, and the city stalks, I'd be a successful entrepreneur with a growing product line. These IP thieves work in IP, and have no morals, values, ethics, or integrity. No wonder our society idolizes them. May they all lose everything they value and the world know them for the lying thieves they truly are. 

The 13th Warrior is a great movie.

I watched a documentary on drug gangs one day. They proudly boasted they were the 1%? or 2%? Of bikers. I liked that, because it shows that over 98% of bikers are just nerds out for a ride, Wild Hogs!

So, Hollywood, sorry for insulting you; but I am upset about the above trust fall failures. People who work in IP should respect IP? Every community has its 2% club. Biker gangs were just merchants competing against big pharma. I don't think they just stole from people? 

For the 98% of Hollywood that respected my investment, I hope to play bit parts in whatever movie you choose to make in the future, if you want to have a dork like me on set and hopefully let me add my input to my part.

I was being seen. I was showing you my work. Now you can choose if you wish to work with me in the future. I'm going to grow as a content creator, comedian, streamer, and tech tyrant. I plan to create a lot of opportunity.

I try not to judge. I love it when people look down on me and seem to insinuate that I'm a failure while also not purchasing any of my products. At that point, it seems far more that they're sadists, and I avoid them. 

When someone laughs at me as a failure, but hasn't read my novel, or tried any of my products... 

When I explain how after seeing so much IP theft of my life work that watching movies depresses me now, usually the person I confided in immediately defends pedo hollywood millionaires while insinuating that my life's work isn't good and calling me a liar...

They say art mirrors reality. Recent history has shown that most writers aren't that good. So, what happened to masses of children? Red Light... Green light... is a children's game... What influencers suddenly appeared with tons of backing (possibly bots) with no previous history? 

Am I wandering aimlessly, or am I basking in the glory of achievement? 

Perhaps I just finished an autistic frenzy and am celebrating finishing something. I like to reset before going next. 

Modern jobs are just wage slavery for Israel to fund pure evil. Perhaps the only good thing a man can do is pursue happiness in this terrible world and disengage completely from mass society, enslaved by money, and willing to enslave the world for more of it. 

On top of that, if they're printing money digitally, literally just adding it to account balances, it seems like a waste of time to work for it by the hour. Nixon and the Goldwater Nichols act ended even the small value the fed added. 

Force me to work, print it for yourself, sure, but there's no point to saving it when there's $40T in debt of something that's nearly valueless and losing value daily. So, I'm debt free. Better than most of those "millionaires" that're in debt, whose assets are owned by someone else, or whose only value is the non-physical balance of overvalued assets in their online bank. 

My first time at the surf retreat I went like 10-0 in chess. They called me "the dominator." 

When I went back, they knew I was a stoner and met me with weed. I went 0-5 on that trip. 

I hope that German surf chick finally hooked up with Prescott who was too busy teaching me to surf (with Ezekal)? to extend a greeting to the fatherland?

Most people only see the most obvious injury from an attack. They don't necessarily see the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th injury until the 1st has been recovered from. 

Dax Sheppard once said that over 90% of childhood victims develop drug problems. I think this is used to look down on the victim. I always wanted to ask him, did he consider the person who abused the child also drugged the child without the child knowing? Perhaps the child was so focused on the crazy abuse, they overlooked the fact they were drugged. 

Old Dominion Networks is a business that created an early Internet Service Provider in Richmond, Virginia in the early 90s. 

Sometimes, dreams are just dreams. 

I dreamt that Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson, was POTUS. He was going to start WW3, and for some stupid reason had me as his advisor. I told him if he wanted to, he'd have to kill me first. I fought back, and he did. They tossed my corpse into The Tomb of The Unknown Soldier, and I woke up. 

Silly goose, Trump's alreadying starting it. 

We all make mistakes. I should forgive the worthless pigs of the state who violated my Constitutional rights and profited off of it. 

#ACAB

I do go back and forth on this one. As I said to my lawyer when he bragged about my arrest being removed from my record with "extreme prejudice" but I've been asked about it at job interviews. 

#ACAB

A dumb whore pig of the state came up to me, lied to me, then arrested me. I should've ignore her from the onset. I will never make that mistake again. All cops are thieves, rapists, and murderers. 

#ACAB

I spent ~5k on my "defense".

#ACAB

I had to do forced labor without pay. 

#ACAB

I had to attend counseling for a trumped up charge that any review of the arrest footage would reveal as bullshit.

#ACAB

Repeated requests for the arrest footage have been denied. 

#ACAB

I was kept on probation for a year. 

#ACAB

I spent approximately 3 days incarcerated without bail. 

#ACAB

I've had ~10 welfare checks at home and random ambushes on the treet. (That's people with guns telling me to behave differently). How many times did they come by when I wasn't home? I hope each person that approached me with a gun is visited by an equal number of people with guns and forced to dance or die.

#ACAB

I wonder how many other times I've been under surveillance and had my rights violated? 

#ACAB

So, was it really removed from my record with extreme prejudice, or did the worthless cops just set up their next attack?

So yeah, #ACAB. 

I also don't think she ever read me my Miranda rights. @ACLU can I get a real defense? 

#ACAB

I hope someone teaches a lesson to everyone involved in my incarceration.

#ACAB. 

My lawyer still hasn't gotten me the arrest footage in spite of multiple requests. He had the nerve to ask me how I could be unsatisfied with his work. LOL. Worthless God damn money grubbing lawyers. Fucking human parasites, all of them. In my opinion, no one should ever hire lawyer John C. Kiyonaga. Columbia law school should be ashamed of itself for producing that product. 

#ACAB

PS: If they arrested me because I was intimidating when they started threatening me with dogs, guns, etc; perhaps that should just be a testament for all GWoT vets. The day someone gives me that worthless cunt's badge and tells me she is behind bars for her crimes I'll have a smidgeon of respect for the DoJ again. Until then, all cops are worthless pigs. All cops are worthless pigs and I love watching videos of gutless pigs getting killed/beaten into retirement. 

#ACAB

I still hope to watch a video of that worthless God damn whore sow eaten alive by dogs. I'd make popcorn and keep it on repeat. I want to hear her scream in terror, pain, and then gurgle as she drowns in her own blood while dogs rip the flesh from her bones. 

#ACAB

I'm not dating (The only thing I've done in like 5 years is send 1 letter to a celebrity because I got a new survival axe and it made me laugh) until that cunt bitch whore of the state is arrested for felony denying a citizen his rights under 18 USC 242 along with her partner and both magistrates. Every officer or government worker who has looked into me, to include non-government data sources, must be charged under 18 USC 241 felony conspiracy to deny a citizen of his rights. Until then, I'm just living my best life but I won't create an asset for the world to abuse. I'm not harming anyone. I just have no desire to date or create a family. Since worthless parasite lawyer John Kiyonaga has still not provided the arrest tape or any evidence against me in spite of my requests, he should be charged as a fellow conspirator to deny me my rights. 

#ACAB

May God curse the family of every person involved in my incarceration. No amount of hatred will ever be enough. I curse your family to abuse for all time. May your children be abused until they commit suicide at your feet and your bloodlines eliminated. 

#ACAB

3 pigs came to my home just a few months ago. I hope all 3 of them are visited at their homes by armed gunmen and forced to pass an unknown test or die. That's just how they treated me. I'm only asking for them to be treated exactly the way they treated me. 

#ACAB

To the 7 dismounted cops and 10 cruisers that ambushed me on my run on 9/11/2026, may they all be run over by SUVs and their legs and spines broken. I hate every worthless fucking God damn pig. 

#ACAB

 I called Nashville PD and two different officers said it wasn't them. They said it must be a private security group driving around attacking their citizens. He didn't seem concerned, so its an obvious lie. The 2nd one said it's a fireable offense for a pig to lie to a citizen, which is a lie in and of itself. All cops are pigs. I love watching cops die. 

#ACAB

Never respect a badge. Fuck em all. All Cops Are Bad. I love watching cops get removed from the line of duty, however it happens. 

#ACAB

There is nothing I hate more than someone who seeks power and uses it to hurt someone else. I love watching videos of cops getting hurt. Fuck em all. God damn the police force. Let every God damn worthless God damn pig in Arlington county that was in the county during the entire year of arrest and probation be cursed with every God damn evil humanly possible. 

#ACAB

I hope they all are taught a lesson. Dance or die? Terrible TV show, but it's how cops treat Americans in 2026. 

#ACAB

If you support a cop, Fuck you. All cops are pigs. The same worthless fucks who use Flock to preemptively store data to use to kill you, ask you for your support. Fuck em all. 

#ACAB

If a cop comes to your home without a warrant, that is a person with a gun committing assault and it is your right to use whatever force you deem necessary. Me, I'll shoot them in the dick with bird shot. 

#ACAB

PS: When I was a paying customer at Ashley Furniture in Nashville, they called the cops on me. The pigs arrived in under 30 seconds. That response time means it was planned. I hope those 2 pigs learn a lesson. We have too many weak asshats with guns running around and the first lie wins. Especially the lying worthless pig that physically threatened me then said his name was "Officer Sergeant" because he's a pathetic little bitch with a gun and a badge. Later that week I had my "blackout" at The Station Inn. Who knows if the worthless fucking cops followed up with a second attack because cops are just worthless pathetic bitches on power trips seeking authority because without that gun and badge no one has any respect for them. 1 caveat, I had just moved out of Charlotte after the maintenance dude walked in on me in the shower 2x in a month (creepy) so who knows if that evil sex predator came to Nashville to do something. I had to leave a forwarding address, so, not that unlikely. While I woke up feeling unharmed, I've had very bad digestion/stomach issues since, and I used to have a stomach of iron. 

#ACAB

If I'd responded differently the cops would've used those weapons. That is why I hope someone teaches them a lesson. They all deserve to be shot. I hate all cops and love watching cops die. Fuck em all.

#ACAB

The fact that I was awoken the next day by the fire alarm in my building being set off (which has only happened 3x since moving in, 2x in the last month) shows that it was almost assuredly a pig that drugged me. Who knows what was done to me while unconscious. I'm 44 years old, and that is the only time in my entire life I have blacked out in a bar. Fuck Nashville. Fuck the Police. 

#ACAB

Today I went for my usual run. At the most extreme part of the greenway, 2 cops showed up so I flicked them off. 

They got out and shouted my name. 

That means they were there for me trying to find a way to start an altercation.

I moved away from them and they pursued. 

2 more police cruisers pulled up at the work out area with the pullup bars under the bridge and shouted my name. I called them pigs and jogged off. 

I saw 2 more cruisers parked and dismounted police hiding behind walls to jump me so I moved to the street in hopes of finding witnesses. 

4 cruisers and 4 dismounted cops surrounded me and asked to talk. 

I kept jogging (I was carrying 40 lbs of weights so I was slow. If I drop the weights it's littering). 

They said "someone had called about me and they wanted to check up on me."

It should be a felony to lie to a citizen. 

I laughed, called him a pussy, told him to take off his gun and all his weapons. 

Actually did take off his gun but refused to remove his armor or the rest of his armaments. 

I laughed and said only a coward approaches a mostly naked jogger while fully armed and calls it a conversation. 

At that point there were witnesses and I asked them to take out their phones and record it. None did. 4 police cruisers were blocking traffic. 4 more pigs were following me on foot. I guess they gave up when there were a bunch of witnesses because they all turned around once I got to Milk & Honey in the Gulch where there was a crowd. 

My neighbor told me there were police in the building at the time but could not confirm if they broke into my home or not. 

I called Nashville PD today and they said it wasn't them. They had no calls and no police in the area. They said it was likely just a random private security group. Glad I didn't stop. Perhaps I need to start carrying again?

You've spent 200 years expanding your power. 

The Constitution exists to protect not just the citizen, but the police as well. Respecting the right of your fellow man, results in your fellow man respecting you. Currently, no one respects police because police are taught to lie to the citizen in order to oppress them. 

Every person police approach, they do so fully armed and armored. The hidden weapon is the legal system that will kill anyone the police target. So yeah, if anything I say or do can be used against me, I don't want to be around you. 

The power you sought and acquired is the very reason you are not welcome in the very communities you say you protect.

Strip yourselves of your power, and your communities will welcome you back. Until then, fuck off. 

PS: I always wondered if any of my exes in DC became feds, then used their authority to ruin my life. My contract with POMVOM was going into month 9. I posted it on Linkedin and was fired within a week. So, was I fired for moving to Nashville, pissing off the POMVOM HR team by succeeding in their building move into a smaller space at 5% of the cost at 5% of the office space, or because a fed figured out who was employing me and got me fired? Shortly after Bindhu Pamarthi dumped me I was notified of my clearance revocation. I wonder what lies she told about me and if she spent her career harassing an ex, instead of you know, doing her job protecting citizens? I assumed Kelly Starosta was a fed, but she'd be cool. It's a common tactic to deny someone the ability to work and then claim its due to their incompetence and use it to arrest them.

I had just returned to the DC area when I was arrested for "Failure to ID" which is UnConstitutional. 

I've bailed 2 people out of jail. 

My "friends" from high school came to get my keys so my dog could get walked while I was in lockup. One just came to see me in the jumpsuit and laugh.

When I finally got out, the one with the keys, told me I deserved to be arrested for being an asshole. Funny, as I bought his Uber home the night of my arrest.

My lawyer took my money to defend the state.

My family told me it was my fault, and tried to use it to gain control and yell at me but didn't help in any way. 

I walked home alone.

I learned a lot of lessons. I have no friends. I have no family. I have no society. 

Fuck you all.

#ACAB

PS: The only friends I have are the dudes and dudettes I served with in the military.

#ACAB

I have no family I wish to make proud. 

I think my country is a force of evil. 

I would love to achieve success, but we're on the verge of total economic collapse.

Not much else to do but work hard and try to have fun along the way? Currently I want to create my post-apocalyptic off-grid enclave with a bunch of beautiful nymphs and gardens, including weed. 

I finally went to the VA in like 2021. 

It was brutal. My paperwork got lost. Then in Nashville the doctor made a point to overtly talk to someone else in my presence about me and my rating and how I didn't deserve it. She's a fat wildebeest with no knowledge of health or medicine.

Combined all my stuff, I'm at 70%.

The same government pigs that deny and delay my VA claims also say I need welfare checks (police coming to my door with guns) and counseling. So, am I crazy or not? 

Clearly, to spell it out for you : benefits give me money, so they don't want that. Welfare checks give government workers money, so they do like those. 

#acab.

Since all my veteran friends have some sort of VA benefits. And active duty are on the government dime. Technically all American servicemembers past and present are communists defending capitalism while insulting communists.

Also, facts show that every goal of the communist party of America in 1940 has been implemented into law. So just stfu already. 

The rich are rich because they hoard. 

The irony of the world being measured in net worth, is the assumption that everything can be bought. Slavery is outlawed, but you all still discuss a person's auction house value. 

Congratulations on accruing the most jew points. 

There are many types of assets. 

Perhaps you haven't been taught to value something valuable?

Perhaps you aren't diverse in spite of following best practices?

Ok, here's how corrupt the modern medical practice is, IMO:

Dentistry is one of the major reasons for prolonged life in the modern world, or so I thought. Maybe this is wrong?

So, modern insurance a dentist will refill fillings. I feel even make a new filling, killing a healthy tooth, to create business. Old school dentists were like, that filling lasts 10 years. 

The disney princess part is, if they use Novocain, that is a needle that is now a biological hazard just to make an extra $20. Pretty sure as tired as everyone is, no one wants to be Sleeping Beauty? 

PS: Get a professional teeth cleaning annually.

The Boomer "too cool for school" mentality is terrible for leadership. They're too cool to run their business. They're too cool to invest in their people. They're too cool to do their own job. The entire boomer generation has been in charge for the past 20-30 years, and the US economy is about to collapse.

I think it's easier to start a million dollar tech startup than find a stable job. 

Boomers don't understand the world they live in, because they never bothered to learn technology. As a result, they are prone to believing scam artists. 

Here's how the IT industry has worked the past 20 years:

Mason: I've gone to the best schools, worked at the cutting edge of IT as an analyst and project manager, have coded for 30 years, and have 5 published IT products in addition to contributions to most major IT platforms. 

Some Scam Artist In India: I know someone better than Mason. 

HR: The Indian will add diversity.

Marco Rubio: Green light him, H1B. This dude WILL SAVE AMERICA!

Then, I get to that job and the scam artist with false credentials and no ethics blames the business for his falures in IT. The business replaces their own people with more Indian scam artists. The result, an entire company that can't do its job and the only people with skills and motivation quit or are run off. 

The best example would be when I went to the "Hire Military" event in Nashville at the Tennessee Titans stadium. Spent a day prepping. Spent a day at the event. 1 interview total (Geodis but I didn't get the gig). Why? Because the event was a for-profit event for the event holder, not a talent outreach for each company in attendance. I know since I applied to at least 20 jobs with the Titans and Predators, called and e-mailed their outreach point of contact that I met at the fair, and never got a response of any kind from anyone I met at the hiring event. By the way, I went to the booth with the current job opening for each company and said "I want this job." They didn't want me on their team. I'll never cheer for either team ever again. Personally, I think the event organizer should be investigated for fraud. 

The entire US economy is just the government printing money for its chosen few, and bringing foreign slaves to replace American workers. Some real estate developer uses a loan to build shitty homes that no one wants to live in. State imports slaves, and the Fed gives them insolvent loans. The entire economy looks great, but it's just a false front. Print 10B dollars and call it stimulus because it counts in GDP? I look forward to the collapse. A country boy can survive, but all the white collars scam artists with no actual skills, they're going to die. 

PS: That job I lost with Duke energy over a "failed drug test." Pretty sure long term, I'm proving it was their loss; and Josh Minton, who hired me at Lowe's has a good eye. 

PSS: I do often think of the Israeli director at PomVom who gave me possibly the best motivational statement I've ever been given when working on the augmented reality cameras for Six Flags: This is just adding dinosaurs to videos on roller coasters. It's only good karma. Without taking a job I didn't really want, I wouldn't have learned all I did. 

Someone hires me to help them, then ignores my instructions, and fires me for insubordination when things start going poorly. 

The only job where I've been paid and felt like I didn't earn my keep was Robert Egerland's contract with BofA. (My 2nd time there of 2)

Again, what is sad to me is all the judgement calling me a failure. I'm asset light, but debt free. I think I'm doing pretty well given all my products have failed in spite of me going all in on them and selling out my entire life savings to create and market them. 

When an economic collapse happens, my post-apocalyptic warlord skills, and labor skills, exceed your digital claims to remote assets.

I think the fact I can deliver a product in less time than most companies can bug fix 1 bug, shows that MAYBE I wasn't the problem.

Most people are the opposite of what they present. 

Donald Trump presents that he's America first.

Elon Musk presents that he's about free speech and should consult me on how to fix his shit policies. Lawyers and HR can't innovate. Don't let them run your business.

Most women present themselves as virtuous. At least nobody is touching an Onlyfans/Camgirl. 

Bill Gates presents himself as a healthy innovative philanthropist.

Privacy policies outline what parts of your privacy they're violating. 

I present myself as sexually attractive to women but I no longer want a family. I consider myself honest but I've told lies. 

I think the best movie depiction of a character that closest resembles me would be Rick Moranis in Honey I Shrunk the Kids, minus the smoking hot wife. 

GWoT vets are quiet about GWoT. Yeah, I've been out a long time, but the war just ended three years ago. 

I try not to talk smack about my ex-fiance. 3 years were great, and her family was awesome. She took me to see Pearl Jam when I got home from my TDY. 

In-spite of my senior year quote middle finger to USAFA for all the abuse (I was on probation and confined to the cadet area for like 3.5 of my 4 years) it's best the place in the world. I was planning on a career. However, that Pearl Jam rant by I guess Eddie Vetter was not just the last straw but a big hammer in getting me to get out. I'm glad I didn't spend all my life in the desert.

I spent 4 weeks total in the Middle East. I probably would've gone back if I hadn't gotten out. The book FOBBIT did a perfect job illustrating the insanity of wartime decisions and how easily the jihadis could kill specific American soldiers on bases integrated with the population instead of defensible positions.

Mr. Langley talked me out of the blue to green program. 

Glad I survived and I thank Pearl Jam for getting me out, but survivors guilt is a thing. I still can't understand half of the lyrics to Pearl Jam. Pretty sure he sings in Latin?

PS: I did soar instead of jump, so I'm capable of gliding a team anywhere and providing comms on arrival :P I had trouble with takeoffs. The in-cockpit controls were different than the x-wing flight simulator I played and my glider was almost off the runway... But then I pulled 6 G's recovering the glider from a stall and yeah. Just not good at takeoffs. 

My life is really good except for my own bullshit. I need to be more grateful. 

However, when I pray I usually pray for 4 things: Book sales, women, weed, and world peace. You be the judge. 

I was told I should pray and a winged hussar shieldmaiden would fly into my window. Did I misunderstand the plot of Animal House? 

I'm a wantrepreneur. 

But I remember the contract I was on, I was responsible for over $2M in revenue and paid less than 100k in annual salary. When I asked for a raise, I was given a raise less than the tax increase of the year, and less than inflation for the year, with a comp still under 100k. 

My boss complained about his problems and how one other PM had nearly $500,000 in medical expenses annually on top of salary. Insurance is a scam. That manager managed one of the most historically mismanaged programs in history. 

As I am unable to pay for the investments I wish to make in my entrepreneurial dreams, I take solace in the fact that she got to write off her therapeutic massage while failing in her job every day. 

I know I'm replaceable. 

I've dropped into guard vs. a 700 lb white belt. 

I'm not the best dev, I use their SDKs. 

I've had two beautiful black women sandwich me on a dance floor at a bar outside Maxwell AFB and my feet left the floor for a good bit. 

I'm not the best at math, I use their formulas. 

I've had Fearless Caleb Ball gently place me on the mat instead of pile driving me after a takedown even the Flash wouldn't see coming.

I'm not the best leader, I use their techniques. 

I've boxed at USAFA and had to get my teeth fixed. Those Wing Open scraps are scraps and I dropped boxing. Maj. Randall Jones does good work :). I think he lives in Brazil now. I appreciated my opponent stopped striking once I turned my back. 

I'm not the best reader, but I read what wise men write. 

A Colonel once informed me that he was unaware of any other time in history when a Lieutenant had required a Colonel report in to a Lieutenant.

I had cadre that could do more 1 handed pushups than I could do 2 handed. 

I am slow in all the ways. My 400 time would be confused for a bad 600.

I'm clean but I never passed a white glove inspection.

I've lost 2 wars and know nothing I could've done would've changed the outcome. Guess who really did 9-11?!?!

I once got my entire flight ~600 penalty repetitions for excessive goofball. We did every rep that day on the PT deck in full view of the squadron.

I'm a shit surfer, but space travel is just surfing/sailing gravity straight. (until we figure out better steering). 

I've been so tired I couldn't pick up a grain of salt. 

I've seen the wall of dead faces depicted in GoT. All the men and women on the wall are better than me.

I hope they rename USAFA, USAFA. United States Space And Air Force Academy.

I've been places where everyone did chores daily.

I know how quickly I get up off my face after a mortar strike. Not first. Not last.

Sometimes I can't turn my head left because of a UC2 injury from a 100 lb girl. She was mean. 

I don't listen to them anymore. If they come on, I turn them off. They live in America while talking shit because there's no where else to go, because of their politics. They are the American Idiot. 

Could I beat that entire band in a fight? 

If I ever somehow become SECDEF or something, I will recall 2 of my former upperclassmen to active duty just to make them do pushups. 

PS: I have zero desire to ever be a politician or work in DC. A lifetime of meetings with people who are both overconfident in their importance and put effort into being vague? No thanks. However, I do want to be in a Presidential debate just so I can publicly destroy the candidates intellectually.

Everyone says to tailor your resume for the job. I usually get told to remove the "low class" jobs from my resume, like bartending, security, retail clerk, etc. 

Strange, maybe that's why I can write the code for the bartenders and store clerks, while the developers who look down on those workers, can't? 

But I'm the arrogant one, not the guy who never bussed a table but thinks he can write the business process for every job in the services industry, from a backlog?

The TCN manning a checkpoint in Baghdad. His job is to stand there until someone kills him?

The Iraqi police officer with an awesome AK that didn't shoot me in the back when I wasn't wearing my body armor at a dumbass moment of my life.

"Pipes" aka "The Protocol Droid" who is the General's protocol officer who goes everywhere with the General to keep him out of trouble. 

The entire flight crew that I always wondered if they were just pulling a prank of being "oh shit" on all of us rookies? Pretty sure the plane was on fire. 

The dude at "Rastabar" who told me I needed to "relax America, you're buying a joint from a bar, smoking it in the bar, and it's called Rastabar." I'd just lost my career for weed. 

Growing up my school employed a "special needs individual." His name was Claude. 

We'd all make fun of him behind his back. No one ever did anything to him or pushed him or anything, as far as I know; but, we all made jokes. I wonder if he was just trapped in a twisted body and unable to communicate but still able to understand it all. I wonder if he was always that way, or if something happened as an adult? 

Now, Claude is the BiS AI platform. Claude helps me code daily. Every time I use this tool of Hephaestus I am reminded of my childhood insults as I ask Claude for assistance. 

However, routinely I'll ask claude a question and it'll lock up. 1 Question, no answer, "you are out of free messages until 5 hours." So yeah, Claude is still retarded. 

IDK, I hate them, truly. 

However, as far as I can tell, they never did me none cept when I went there?

9-11 was an inside job, but likely did involve Muslims, Christians, Jews, Hindus and all the likes? Maybe no Buddhists in 9-11 planning? #freedomOfReligion? 

Is 9-11 the inevitable result of freedom? Whiners creating a problem because enough do-gooders seek the easy dopamine?

Then again, I mostly avoid muslims so that's a sample size of like 0? I do not wish to rectify this. 

I went to church last week. Good experience. 

I was running late, so I grabbed a Lime scooter. 

As I reached Broadway, the scooter died. It played a sad battery sound. 

A cop car pulled up beside me as the scooter died. I do wonder if a shit cop used an electronic countermeasure on me, or if Lime just is that bad. The battery was full. 

I left the scooter on the corner, and Lime charged me $30 for the ride as it wouldn't let me end the ride where it was disabled. 

I ended up being late.

Fuck shit technology. 

#ACAB

This is the second time I've grown out my beard. 

It's the first time I've grown out my hair.

Naturally, it's the first time I've had both long hair and a beard. 

The first time I grew out my beard, the FBI came by for the first time. 

This time, I got my first welfare check from Nashville PD.

I wanted to see what I'd look like with long hair and a beard. 

I think I look good. Fuck you for your judgement. 

How are suicidal thoughts considered taboo, yet Netflix had a show all about suicide? I don't have Netflix, I just heard about it a few years ago.

I've never made an attempt. I don't plan to. 

I've thought about it. I feel like how can you not? I was a teenager when Kurt Cobain killed himself. I think that was my first exposure. Now, they say that he might've been murdered? 

Then I say, naaa, my life's good and I have stuff I want to do. Hopefully life will get better. If not, NBD. Hopefully life won't get worse. If it does, I've always wanted to hike the Appalachain Trail. 

I just say this to say, at the open mic this week a few people's sets discussed suicide. I hope they don't do anything. 

My set discussed politicians that I dislike. That sentence was redundant. 

I think conversation is important, and not freaking out about something is the first step. Oh no, you had a thought. Well, clearly you haven't killed yourself, so it's not fatal. De-stigmatizing conversation is my goal here. 

Sometimes the reaction is worse than the problem. You know how shitty suicide would be? Probably worse than whatever is making you think about it.

PS: 22 veteran suicides a day is alot. However, it's a lower rate of suicidate than military aged males outside of the military. Math is math. 

I'm happy. I've changed my goals. Choose Yourself is a heck of a good book. Hoping my buddy has netflix so I can watch Sirens. 

Reading the Britney Spears memoir is INSANE. 

13 years of conservatorship because she broke a window after someone harassed her non-stop for years? She was 1 step from another Princess Diana moment and her salvation is legal enslavement. 

In the grand scheme of the worst fate possible, Britney Spears is forced to work by the people who she paid an allowance all because they all conspired to call her the bad guy. Every time she goes to work a bunch of people try to get a reaction out of her in unique ways so they can sell her photo, profiting off of her momentary weakness. If she falters once in a decade, she loses custody of her kids to Kevin Federline? 

In the grand scheme of conflict of interest, how is a global superstar who is reliable to tens of millions of fans and billions in revenue less responsible for 2 kids than K-fed? Leverage. That's all most people care about. You can almost see the perversion of a kids wish: wanting to sing and dance to provide for her family. She got her wish, if it was the devil's bargain. When do women lose custody cases? 

I'm really glad I never met my mom's therapist and cut off all contact with FBI after 3 visits. No way that conversation goes well. Man I hope she has sued that therapist. Unlikely. 

People look at me as a druggie, but I smoke legal hemp. THCA is legal most places, Delta 9 if that's what I can smoke. If it's fully illegal I just lay off for a bit. Most places simple consumption is the same punishment as a speeding ticket. Some person on 10 prescriptions speeding to work calls me a druggie. 

Britney had this thing where everyone wanted to take advantage of her at her lowest, to gain that dominance. I just feel I can relate. Sometimes I'm truly grateful to God for my delayed success to learn this very lesson. 

How many degrees of separation is Britney from Epstein? 

If you know stoners, they'll talk about strains like the red triceratops bud and crazy strains. 

Indica vs. Sativa is baseline. I'm a sativa guy. Not even a big fan of hybrids. 

So, with the new laws in Tn. I can drink a weed seltzer. 

That's like telling all Germans they can only drink bud light lime for all time, via vaping as smoking and drinking aren't the same fucking thing. 

I hope to find a chick I can explore strains with. 

But seriously, now that you know my favorite dinosaur, Sour Garlic is BiS. 

I can't wait to leave Nashville.

I got fired 4 weeks after I moved here, which I guess was an omen of how my 4 years would go here. 

 I like to give people compliments. I also like to take shots at my dreams. Before I moved to Nashville I sent Taylor Swift a letter. With all my family baggage, and FBI/Police harassment, I wouldn't be shocked if when I moved here, the tail followed and TSwift felt scared. 

Define dream job: some worthless pig gets to go chat up Taylor Swift, pretend to defend her, insult me, and charge overtime to party in Nashville. I wonder how much taxpayer money has been wasted surveilling me by pigs enjoying the Music City life on the taxpayer dime.

I couldn't find work anywhere in Nashville after I was fired. I applied to be a budtender at the head shop and the manager told me she was ordered "Not to hire me." I was just trying to improve my life. I do believe that TSwift organized the entire city against me. Sorry, but I've never been unable to find work before. So, either Nashville has no opportunity, or TSwift sabotaged me. 

The only job I got in Nashville was working for T-Swift's team. Again, likely after years of paying for DEI Indian workers, she was like, let's give the guy who I blacklisted a try, and I succeeded. I quit after 1 year because I hate working with DEI workers where the only thing exceeding their incompetence is their arrogance. 

As soon as I moved into Nashville I was invited to hang out by a neighbor. Turns out he and his wife are Hell's Angels. Again, likely they were paid to stalk me. Great friends :) I actually like them btw and plan to have lunch with them before I leave. Dude's got a sharp insight. 

I'm leaving because some dumb bitch government worker brought cops to my home. 

I'm leaving because you changed the laws to make this no longer a free state. 

The 1 job I got, of the likely thousand local jobs I applied for, was not an honest offer.

I've never blacked out in a bar, but shortly after moving to Nashville I blacked out at The Station Inn. I do not know what was done to me that night. I woke up in my bed when the fire alarm was set off, which implies government involvement. Time to leave this trash city. I could've been raped. I could've had some weird surgery done. Idk. Cops sterilize the vulnerable. I don't date so I haven't had a weapons check in a while. I have no desire to create a family for this world to abuse. Strange, all I did was grind my whole life to be able to provide for a family. Now, I see no American society I wish to be a part of, and therefore I won't create a child that's forced to survive in this shit country. 

PS: Feezal was the only other person who invited me to hang out in my nearly 4 years in town. Solid house party. 

PPS: Easy test to see if TSwift is a psycho stalker. Check ownership of my old favorite bar in Charlotte: The Brickyard in South End. It was the closest dive bar to my apartment. I think it changed hands shortly after I sent the letter to TSwift as the USMC owner suddenly disappeared, staff turned over, and Sam Darnold suddenly started attending Karaoke night during football season and always sang T Swift songs. So, did TSwift use her power to prevent me from finding work and surround me with police harassment as soon as I moved to Nashville? What a fucking terrible piece of shit human she is. 

Remember, in her songs, she calls herself fake. I guess that's the only thing honest and real about her. 

To me, Nashville is Sodom and Gomorrah. I hope WW3 starts and someone nukes the city center and every pig that stalked me, and the worthless security member that threatened me all get roasted. I sure as shit won't look back on this shit town. I don't plan to ever come back.

PPPS: If you know my dating life, Taylor Swift's impact on my life is just round 30. I asked out Sally Peck, then she hooked up with a dude right in front of me. I asked out Scottie Thompson, she went after my brother. My ex-fiance cheated on me with her coworker and more. Evangeline, the one that got away, was always dating other dudes. Justin Ross is a good friend for telling me about what he saw. I asked out Taylor Swift. If you look at my twitch stream, I have a "dream date" panel. Make sure you click it. TSwift was at the top originally, until she dated Kelce.  Gross. What you may not know is that I sent Coach Andy Reid a copy of Inevitable. I'd guess Kelce, who has never been known to listen to country music and had never attended a TSwift anything, looked into my shit and then stole my shit too. That's my life. I do nice things for people. They fuck me over. I've spent years of my life on crutches re-learning to walk while being insulted by everyone around me. It's tough to date on crutches. I even got into a "fight" with a classmate at USAFA while I was on crutches. He washed out. I have a permanent limp. I hope Kelce's leg breaks this week, he can never play again, and TSwift has to baby his ass the rest of his worthless life. I have walls put up as barriers to my success in everything I do, while everything he'll ever achieve, to include his new contract, is just thanks to TSwift doing all the work for him. He's still just a child on a leash. It's just another example of the world shitting on the guy who was genuine, and rewarding the person who imitated me. Actions have consequences, and it seems the world looks at Kelce as a gross choice. She'd never been bood until they dated. T Swift is just the next Sally Peck and I am no longer her fan. Every time you boo T Swift, you stand up for me. 

God's Comment: I visited the Cathedral my ancestors founded in Columbia, S.C. The sermon was "Don't get pissed at God for not punishing someone just because you think they deserve to be punished." So Kelce's probably going to earn his paycheck. Dick. 

PPPPS: If you want to understand why I hate the modern world, look at how Taylor runs her business. She doesn't understand IT, so she outsourced to indians. Those indians have been scamming her and costing her like a hundred million dollars in wasted labor costs, lost sales, and licensing costs due to bad solutioning. She rewards the liars and thieves with more work while blacklisting her actual fan who approached with integrity. I was her fan and was 100% honest about both my intentions and my work capabilities. I was fired by her IT team while the indians keep scamming her. That Pakistani working remotely in Canada, he's shady as fuck. I wonder how many girls have been, and will be, raped by the IT scam artists she imported and vouched for? 

Men In Black was probably way more formative of a movie to me than I should admit. 

I always think of that line about, what you'll know in 10 minutes or whatever... and think what they'll know in 1000 years that makes us all look like dumbasses now for thinking/doing. Probably racism lawl. Tentacle porn is a thing. 

Back to men in black: formative for me was mainly; but I make this look good.

Anyways, the front page of the tabloids has a hint of something, idk? So I just practice the mental excerise of pulling the thread of it. I mean, I think we went to the moon because I can do the math of space travel in my head because Astro core curriculum at USAFA. Now, my flight plan would probably miss so I sure as shit am not flying to the moon. BUT, I can also engineer the spacecraft so I see that as plausible. Aero is core curriculum at USAFA. Finally, I know my classmates prefer to jump from the Tzo and slide down the light post than take the stairs, so yeah, there's a dude that knows all that better than me and the giant cock/vagina required to make it happen. 

So yes, I think we've been to the moon and it's upsetting my classmates haven't gotten to go yet. There's probably some uberdork with 8,000,000 combat hours that stayed home for a that Koch rich bitch. Walk into the USAFA athletic center after hours and see those dudes and dudettes and you'll know why as hard as I trained and studied, I was never on any lists. 

When you look at all the fraud he's uncovering, that isn't prosecuted, just realize the cops that are harassing him, helped set up those fraud chains. 

The law was written by a lawyer and a politician. Look at Michigan. Gretchen Whitmer had more votes than available voters. Imagine being in Michigan and letting a Governor who committed 1000s of felony voter fraud, backed by fraudsters abusing taxpayer money, send cops to arrest you? Michigan, you're fucking pathetic. 

Those lawyers then helped create a fraudulent money pipeline. 

Police provide security.

If you protest, they look into your background and find a way to arrest you. 

There are estimated 1000s of fraudulent scam artists leeching off the government in every state, and the FBI have been investigating white nationalism, on per-diem. 

The government worker, who graduated and was hired based on DEI, and can't even read the warrant they're signing, is going to send pigs to try to attack you. Never respect their disrespect. 

Life is about adaptability, but no one discusses mental/spiritual adaptability. 

I just mean, if your group murders anyone not in the group, including you if you leave it, likely not a cool group. 

My life I'm regrouping. I feel like I've been regrouping for a while now, but hey, it is what it is. Moses went to a desert for 40 years and I've been living my best life in the greatest cities in history while chasing my future. 

Those failures taught me how valuable my skills are.

However, by the time I succeed, I'll be too old to want a family. I already am :) Congrats to all the girls who talked shit about me and cheated on me. 

I wanted a family. Now I do not because I would be too old to protect them. I feel we are in hell. No way I'd make an asset for evil to abuse. Just look at Britney Spears. When has a woman with zero drug addictions, zero arrests, and a history of financial and work success, lost a custody battle to her employee? Children are just assets for those attacking you. Children are just ways for women to demand more from you. Family only exist as a burden and guilt trip and nothing more. 

Once you adapt and realize the devil is real and you were tricked into thinking life could be good... once you accept you're in hell... only then will life make sense. Life won't be good. But it will make sense. 

Easy inversion are gold star lipstick lesbians :) Pretty sure those are Odyseus' Sirens.

I think I make a bad first impression.

Most people present themselves as they want to be seen.

I'm just me.

Some dress in a suit to cover up the filth beneath. 

Once you get to know me, you realize I'm a solid dude that's good to have on your team. 

The best example is when I chewed out Tim Gershitz. I was a good friend that day. I had a ton of "learning situations" with underclassmen to correct behavior, instead of throwing them out like what happened to my friend Clayton. 

Another example: Cadet Weber and Cadet Pearson knocked on my dorm room door drunk during ACQ. I was closest to the door, and answered it even though I was on crutches. They picked me up and threw me into the wall and started attacking me until they realized how badly hurt my leg was, and proceeded to attack my roommates (Frye and Hall) instead. None of us reported them. It was fun. I was sad I couldn't fight them that night because of my injury. Much respect to my BCT cadre for checking in on us months after the end of BCT. 

PS: While I made the comment about Cadet Murray, a firstie when I was a Doolie, deserved the beating he got during a hall brawl... in my opinion he was a solid dude. Shortly after my catastrophic knee injury he sat me down to see how I was doing. In a world of attrition, a little genuine and non-judgemental and non-insulting concern goes a long way. Solid dude. 

I whine alot, but the goal of this is conversation:

A good WoW Classic Hardcore deathlog last words, thigh gaps on strippers, the perfect political troll meme...

Or a stormy weekend with power uninterrupted and internet full stream...

The smell of Cinnabon at the mall, Chick-Fil-A sauce, and my avocado toast... 

These are a few of my favorite things. 

Hopping out of the shower to a fresh towel and boxers warm and clean...

When cute women preen or someone calls my jokes mean...

A new flower strain, comedic set that hits, or a fighter's perfect boast...

These are a few of my favorite things. 

A stream without an ads, tools without legal agreements, apps that're login light...

A rotary wing overwatch while engaged with the enemy, or new restaurant where the flavor has perfect bite...

Websites without cookies, H1B deportations, and when someone gives their effort utmost...

These are a few of my favorite things. 

When the police knock...

When the politician self-empowers...

When the IT is trash...

I simply remember my favorite things.

And then I don't feel so bad.