In the Garden of Eden, everyone was naked. 

Then, they ate the fruit, God kicked them out, and they had to wear clothes. 

Prayer at a church requires clothing... (scandals aside)

So, modern prayer instantly requires you to void the ability to connect with God in exchange for a medium. I don't like it. So, lately I've gotten naked at home before praying a few times. No impact noticed so far, but I like it. :)

In the Odyssey by Homer, Odysseus and his men find an island of a witch. If I remember correctly, she transforms some of his men into animals, and he eats them. Ever since I had that thought, eating meat seemed tough.

Seeing the photos in the Epstein Files of actual human bodies prepared for meals makes me think I shouldn't eat meat ever again. 

Vegans may still take it too far. 

JIEDDO put up the last military photo of the recent KIA as motivation. I was there for 6 years. About 2-3 years afterwards, I curled into a ball and cried until I puked. It lasted a few hours. I'm ok with washing out from that. Now you know why I grind. 

My first true idol was Sir Lancelot. He was the best king's best warrior. 

However, Lancelot was an internal threat. As I got older, I realized he wasn't the best warrior. He was the most evil threat. He abused the trust of the greatest king to steal his kingdom instead of working to build his own. Sadly, there are more Lancelots than Arthurs. 

To this day I have never even held the hand of a girl any of my friends are dating or have dated. If I know a girl is in a relationship, she is inert to me. 

Once I create my kingdom I'll likely be polyamorous and polygamous. I guess I'm a slut? 

I may have been known as a "dork" in my younger years. Shocker, Amirite? 

I remember pure disdain when people said hemp was a miracle product for textiles. I thought it was just justification for recreational weed, which was clearly reprehensible behavior... you know... enjoying life? Such selfish behavior. 

Anyways, what if that's real? What if hemp or whatever it's called, is a stem that is useful for all durable goods from clothing to construction, and its flower is a miracle cure for almost all diseases? 

Given the dystopia we may be in, seems plausible.

I do not want to encourage drug use, especially if it's illegal where you live. However, if it's legal for you to try it, and you've had a bad experience in the past, perhaps it was a bad strain, or bad company, or bad timing. Next time, create your Happy Gilmore happy place and try a strain for euphoric feelings. Sativas are my favorite... but... Indicas are great for working out. A body high while doing yoga is the bees knees. I want to open a yoga studio in Colorado and have a 4:20 hotbox class instead of hot yoga. I feel like everyone will be on time. 

Dream joint circles:

Living:

1: Willie Nelson

2: Miley Cyrus

3: Joe Rogan

4: Nate Diaz

5: Jack Carr

Historical:

1: Jesus

2: Stonewall Jackson

3: Leonidas

4: Gen. Norman Schwarzkopf

5: Jimmy Doolittle

Mythical:

1: King Arthur

2: Tom Bombadil

3: Diana Prince

4: Morgana

5: Santa

Buddha's teaching as I read them stated that once you start down the path to enlightenment, that you are then enlightened. 

IDK. I walked into the doorjam of the same apartment I've lived in for 6 months. I'm pretty sure I'm englighteninging wrong. 

I've heard women's senses change when they stop taking birth control, especially smell and taste. Maybe that's why I've been so unlucky in love. Also, maybe that's why fertility rates dropped? 

Women have had their eggs frozen for generations in hopes of having a family. How many have been siphoned from the pipeline? 1 immoral doctor can access how many millions of eggs? Which CEOs or business directors have access? Their buddies?

How many eggs have been sent to Epstein Island, or other biolabs? #caviar

Ryan Reynolds

Chris Pratt (TBD) but suuuuuper unlikely. Like, Moon conspiracy hoax is more likely to be true. 

Tom Hiddleston

The Koch Family

Disney (I saw articles saying Ezra Miller has a sex cult, and Chris Pratt got James Gunn reinstated by Hollywood after he was kicked out for excessively offensive pedo comments). I feel bad for Milly Alcock being paired with those two social justice disasters. I'm a Milly fan, but I won't watch Supergirl. 

Kathleen Kennedy

Dwayne Johnson (tbd)

Elon Musk

Chris Evans

Bud Light. I sent their Chief Marketing Officer a copy of my novel to serve as proof of quality of work. I asked them to hire me to make a commercial with The Gronk and either Pokimane or Zoey Deschanel. They did their Dylan Mulvaney promo ~3 months later. They should've listened to me. 

The older I get, the more I realize, almost everyone wealthy is a piece of shit. The wealthiest produce the least. Therefore, their wealth is likely due to their willingness to exploit others. If that's the case, you should avoid them as much as possible. My reasons are my own. 

The 13th Warrior is a great movie.

I watched a documentary on drug gangs one day. They proudly boasted they were the 1%? or 2%? Of bikers. I liked that, because it shows that over 98% of bikers are just nerds out for a ride, Wild Hogs!

So, Hollywood, sorry for insulting you; but I am upset about the above trust fall failures. People who work in IP should respect IP? Every community has its 2% club. Biker gangs were just merchants competing against big pharma. I don't think they just stole from people? 

For the 98% of Hollywood that respected my investment, I hope to play bit parts in whatever movie you choose to make in the future, if you want to have a dork like me on set and hopefully let me add my input to my part.

I was being seen. I was showing you my work. Now you can choose if you wish to work with me in the future. I'm going to grow as a content creator, comedian, streamer, and tech tyrant. I plan to create a lot of opportunity.

I tell myself I have it when I feel fat as fuck. My dad played D-Line in college. I have fatboy genes.

However, I grew up watching G.I. Joe which isn't a normal male body image, and then got into WWF (why I'm talented at and default to talking shit), and action movies. I didn't know Arnold took roids when I was a kid. I assumed the WWF guys did, but Arnold was Mr. Olympia. I just always felt scrawny. 

USAFA has the honor code, but I don't think it's considered cheating to take hormones. That PT test is no joke. They have trash cans lined up at the finish line. The indoor grass was usually coated in vomit... that's tough to get out btw... The excuse I make for never earning the lightning bolts (Top 10% physically at USAFA) is that I didn't take roids. Yes, ladies, this dadbod is all natural. 

(You are allowed to fail 1 event in the PFT and still pass as long as you earn enough points. I am quite proud of my 2nd semester firstie year 600 meter time.) Ok, I ingested like 5 tubs of creatine my Doolie year.

However, I know my buddy Patrick Parrish and all the dudes who had the lightning bolts, were better than me. I know this because I'd ask them for workout tips. Every single person that I asked for advice talked of diet. Why burn 300 calories then drink em at Haps? I went to Haps twice in 4 years. After I got dumped by a chick at UVa (different chick than the spring break chick) resulting in 6 months probation for AWoL for missing the football game as a paid spectator, and my 21st which was the day before the AFT. I still don't really enjoy USAFA football games. I usually chugged 2000 calorie shakes before bed.

Anyways, steroids are just fake tits for dudes. In the grand scheme of the opportunity cost of cheating, imagine how many Americans lost generational wealth (Lou Ferrigno), or children developed issues, due to Arnold being Arnold. 

Sup PrattPrattPratt. My dad can beat up your dad. 

I try not to judge. I love it when people look down on me and seem to insinuate that I'm a failure while also not purchasing any of my products. At that point, it seems far more that they're sadists, and I avoid them. 

When someone laughs at me as a failure, but hasn't read my novel, or tried any of my products... 

When I explain how after seeing so much IP theft of my life work that watching movies depresses me now, usually the person I confided in immediately defends pedo hollywood millionaires while insinuating that my life's work isn't good and calling me a liar...

They say art mirrors reality. Recent history has shown that most writers aren't that good. So, what happened to masses of children? Red Light... Green light... is a children's game... What influencers suddenly appeared with tons of backing (possibly bots) with no previous history? 

Am I wandering aimlessly, or am I basking in the glory of achievement? 

Perhaps I just finished an autistic frenzy and am celebrating finishing something. I like to reset before going next. 

Modern jobs are just wage slavery for Israel to fund pure evil. Perhaps the only good thing a man can do is pursue happiness in this terrible world and disengage completely from mass society, enslaved by money, and willing to enslave the world for more of it. 

On top of that, if they're printing money digitally, literally just adding it to account balances, it seems like a waste of time to work for it by the hour. Nixon and the Goldwater Nichols act ended even the small value the fed added. 

Force me to work, print it for yourself, sure, but there's no point to saving it when there's $40T in debt of something that's nearly valueless and losing value daily. So, I'm debt free. Better than most of those "millionaires" that're in debt, whose assets are owned by someone else, or whose only value is the non-physical balance of overvalued assets in their online bank. 

Most people only see the most obvious injury from an attack. They don't necessarily see the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th injury until the 1st has been recovered from. 

Dax Sheppard once said that over 90% of childhood victims develop drug problems. I think this is used to look down on the victim. I always wanted to ask him, did he consider the person who abused the child also drugged the child without the child knowing? Perhaps the child was so focused on the crazy abuse, they overlooked the fact they were drugged. 

Old Dominion Networks is a business that created an early Internet Service Provider in Richmond, Virginia in the early 90s. 

Sometimes, dreams are just dreams. 

I dreamt that Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson, was POTUS. He was going to start WW3, and for some stupid reason had me as his advisor. I told him if he wanted to, he'd have to kill me first. I fought back, and he did. They tossed my corpse into The Tomb of The Unknown Soldier, and I woke up. 

Silly goose, Trump's alreadying starting it. 

I have no family I wish to make proud. 

I think my country is a force of evil. 

I would love to achieve success, but we're on the verge of total economic collapse.

So, I'm going to try to enjoy life for once instead of working to create an asset for someone else to steal and destroy. 

IDGAF. 

White People.

America was great. Western Europe was the example to the world. Now, we fund our own destruction. The absolute stupidity of taking from the few people trying to build a good world, and giving it to the people trying to destroy it, will be lost to history, just as all the deaths in the Gulag Archipelago.

I am convinced that God is real, but so is satan. satan is in charge of every part of this world. It seems everything I was taught about the holocaust was actually done to white Christians.

I am working on a set about religion. I am also studying warfare. The first step to the worship of evil is obfuscating what is evil. People live naturally but manmade laws/lessons call it a sin, and demand punishment. The result is the person living naturally believes they're a sinner, while the person destroying life believes themself to be moral. 

We're $40T of fake money in debt because we print it and give it to evil?

We enslave entrepreneurs (drug dealers) who sell "immoral" products, but steal taxpayer money to fund israeli genocide and big pharma?

It's better to sacrifice everything to save an evil soul than to help good?

Evil loves to attack Christians because a Good Christian is both trusting and non-violent, which is the perfect victim. Once we're all gone, all you've got left is battle for the greatest evil. God works in mysterious ways, and perhaps this is one of them. 

We live in a world of abundance but our leaders fight over manmade scarcity because they have no vision or work ethic.

Instead of jumping on the sword, lead by example. Soon Russia may be the only white Christian nation left on Earth. 

My family likes to brag about all their charitable donations to global NGOs.

The entire value structure of the world has been perverted. I'm here for it. I look forward to disappointing my family, disappointing my country,  and disappointing life. 

In a world of "safe spaces" everyone gets one, except white people. 

Racistly: There are shit whites. But by and large, America was founded by White Christians seeking to escape persecution. The country founded by those white Christians became a beacon to the world. Any black Christians converted due to influence as it's not native to Africa (or Europe). Our modern oligarchs seek to enslave America to those old world forces. Modern black people went from the cool badass to just hating all white people? At this point, I try to judge by values. Christians are trying to create Good. I don't care about race, I care about values. Most countries are not exporting Good. America isn't either anymore. But I always say the one detail everyone overlooks when they insult the modern black community in America is its downfall directly correlates to the rise of Islam within its ranks. Also, Jesus was likely Palestinian so I don't know how all that fits? 

Since all my veteran friends have some sort of VA benefits. And active duty are on the government dime. Technically all American servicemembers past and present are technically communists defending capitalism while insulting communists.

The rich are rich because they hoard. 

The irony of the world being measured in net worth, is the assumption that everything can be bought. Slavery is outlawed, but you all still discuss a person's auction house value. 

Congratulations on accruing the most jew points. 

Someone hires me to help them, then ignores my instructions, and fires me for insubordination when things start going poorly. 

The only job where I've been paid and felt like I didn't earn my keep was Robert Egerland's contract with BofA. (My 2nd time there of 2)

Again, what is sad to me is all the judgement calling me a failure. I'm asset light, but debt free. I think I'm doing pretty well and am prepped to date/recover after the collapse. 

Most people are the opposite of what they present. 

Donald Trump presents that he's America first.

Elon Musk presents that he's about free speech and should consult me on how to fix his shit policies. Lawyers and HR can't innovate. Don't let them run your business.

Most women present themselves as virtuous. I assume Scottie doesn't consider herself a stripper, but I hear she went full nude on HBO. At least nobody is touching an Onlyfans/Camgirl. 

Bill Gates presents himself as a healthy innovative philanthropist.

I present myself as sexually attractive to women.

GWoT vets are quiet about GWoT. Yeah, I've been out a long time, but the war just ended three years ago. 

I try not to talk smack about my ex-fiance. 3 years were great, and her family was awesome. She took me to see Pearl Jam when I got home from my TDY. 

In-spite of my senior year quote middle finger to USAFA for all the abuse (I was on probation and confined to the cadet area for like 3.5 of my 4 years) it's best the place in the world. I was planning on a career. However, that Pearl Jam rant by I guess Eddie Vetter was not just the last straw but a big hammer in getting me to get out. I'm glad I didn't spend all my life in the desert.

I spent 4 weeks total in the Middle East. I probably would've gone back if I hadn't gotten out. The book FOBBIT did a perfect job illustrating the insanity of wartime decisions and how easily the jihadis could kill specific American soldiers on bases integrated with the population instead of defensible positions.

Glad I survived and I thank Pearl Jam for getting me out, but survivors guilt is a thing. I still can't understand half of the lyrics to Pearl Jam. Pretty sure he sings in Latin?

My life is really good except for my own bullshit. I need to be more grateful. 

However, when I pray I usually pray for 4 things: Book sales, women, weed, and world peace. You be the judge. 

I was told I should pray and a winged hussar shieldmaiden would fly into my window. Did I misunderstand the plot of Animal House? 

I'm a wantrepreneur. 

But I remember the contract I was on, I was responsible for over $2M in revenue and paid less than 100k in annual salary. When I asked for a raise, I was given a raise less than the tax increase of the year, and less than inflation for the year, with a comp still under 100k. 

My boss complained about his problems and how one other PM had nearly $500,000 in medical expenses annually on top of salary. Insurance is a scam. That manager managed one of the most historically mismanaged programs in history. 

As I am unable to pay for the investments I wish to make in my entrepreneurial dreams, I take solace in the fact that she got to write off her therapeutic massage while failing in her job every day. 

Why do I seem annoyed? You're upset, and I'm not emotional enough. Is this a big deal? In my opinion, you are likely the problem.

Sorry, as a 25 year old I volunteered to lead a Presidentially directed mission over 6000 miles each way, through multiple hostile countries, with regular contact with the enemy while at the front, and completed the mission with zero-casualties, under-budget, and returned a week early. 

Reality is the NCOIC of the records management program needed a wingman. We'd settle at a base temp lodging. She'd handle the RM portion in 24 hours at each site and I'd to find us a hop to the next spot in that time. It worked well. 

Sorry that you spend more time whining about the problem than fixing it. 

I'm not racist. I'm prejudiced.

Most people who accuse people of racism, do so because they are racist.

I grew up in the South and always heard racist shit. 

I have many mentors who are black.

I have many non-white mentors as well. 

I obviously also have many white mentors.

All of my mentors are current or ex-military. I do not think I have a single individual I admire that isn't current or ex-military aside from Thomas Massie.

I am a veteran. My best roommate ever was a 250LB big ol' black NCO at Camp Sather. Values matter over race. However, oftentimes, people from your same home area have the same values, hence the ease of race being the variable to blame for those dissimilar to yourself.

PS: I am more defensive toward black people than ever before because the modern narrative is quite violent.

PSS: I have a set I need to deliver on my smile and the N word...

I don't listen to them anymore. If they come on, I turn them off. They live in America while talking shit because there's no where else to go, because of their politics. They are the American Idiot. 

I've been to therapy mutliple times, and seen multiple therapists. 

There are good ones, and bad ones. 

I guess, I'd ask, does that therapist seem like someone you'd want to emulate? If not, why ask them for advice? 

Also, If you're in debt, signing up for a recurring cost may not be the best strategy. 

My mom's therapist called the cops on me in another state. Perhaps that guy is a problem, not me. How much money did she waste? I'd love to see a 1 page paper by him about how he thought calling the cops on me, after I cut off contact with family, was a smart move to improve his client's relationship with her family. I think that'd be an interesting read. I wonder how many people he's committed to involuntary incarceration in his career? 

I want to really think this one through. The FBI said he was worried me losing my job at Lowe's had triggered my "fight or flight" response, and he thought somehow sending armed cunts to my door would improve the situation? I don't think Dan's a veteran...

PS: I'd also like to fight that therapist in a UFC rules fight. He put my life in jeapordy. I should be allowed to do the same. Let's see his "fight or flight" response. He insisted through police action that I step into his cage, allow me to extend the same greeting. He can say whatever he wants to me while he's inside that cage. Anything else is a conversation premised on disrespect and my apparent inferiority.

PSS: I'd like Chael Sonnen to host SNL and do a therapy set.